Fearless

My short film for film class on the experience of being lost. You probably won't understand it at all. That's fine. I apologize for the quality, I'm currently in the process of re-exporting so it's better. Hoooray. Hahahaha, this just makes me laugh. Edit: Better quality upload. WATCH IN HD LEGGO.

Bombed my orgo exam. But moving on. The weather has been so. nice. I can't even handle it. Like, I go outside and there's instantly a smile on my face, no matter how upset I am about certain subjects involving certain proton transfers and certain properties that can instantly make you feel inferior to everyone and everything. You know how it is. I think it's supposed to be like this for the rest of the semester, which is wonderful. Which reminds me, my freshman year is over in just three weeks. Oh my gooodness. I don't want to be a sophomore yet!! I'm not done being a freshman!! I feel like I haven't done enough, but then if I think about it, I've done a lot. I've learned a lot about myself, I've learned a lot about other people, I've learned some stuff about reactions of dienes, I've remembered why I love dancing so much, I've developed a new and improved outlook on my life, mostly the stuff that y'all have probably seen me write ...

So I haven't written in a while. I think the frequency of my posts is inversely related to the number of problems that I have in my life. AKA life's aiight. Just gotta keep my head up and hope nothing goes wrong... Sometimes I worry that my new attitude toward life that I've developed in college might border on carelessness. That's not what I mean it to be at all, it's different, but I don't know if this is what carelessness is. I've never been a careless person before. Optimism. Trying not to worry so much about grades. Spending a little more time relaxing and having fun than doing work. Making dance a priority. That's just normal, right? I'm not just weird? Okay? Okay. I dunno. Have you ever wondered why we fall for the wrong people? We think that we like someone, maybe even spend a long relationship with them, but it ends up not working out. You probably haven't wondered it because it's a completely abstract idea. But you would think ...

I wish people listened. I wish they would understand the issues. I wish they weren't so closed-minded. I wish people could be happier. I wish you didn't hate it at Duke. I wish we could somehow change your mind. I wish we didn't have to be afraid to walk home alone at night. I wish your gender didn't just see us as "angry feminists." I wish we were all equal, and not some more equal than others. I wish we saw culture and not color. I wish this wasn't an extrovert world. I wish people didn't feel so alone. I wish the magic didn't disappear. I wish it were sunny outside more often. I wish it were sunny inside more often. I wish the world could run without political manipulation. I wish punctuality were a life or death situation. I wish everyone had a way to express themselves. I wish there were more time to do things. I wish people weren't so ignorant. I wish people didn't expect me to be an extrovert. I wish things clicked between the right...

Some thoughts I had over break. Written on my new Blogger app for the Android woooo so much drainage of battery life!  Are you ever curious about something or wonder about something but never actually try to figure it out until it's too late? Let me explain my ineloquent question with an example. We just passed a sign on the other side of the road that we were facing the back of. I was wondering what it said. I wanted to know what it said but I didn't want to lift my head off the window to look at it. We passed and I never knew what it said. And it kinda bothers me that I'll probably never know what that sign said. Na mean? I just regret not turning around to look at it. I know it sounds dumb, but this seems to happen with me a lot. This year I've done a lot more things that I don't think I would've done before just because I don't want to regret not having at least tried them. Tried out for a play. Become more straightforward, more open. Been in a relati...

Things are getting busy again. Spring break is like, less than two weeks away. I'm pretty happy. I'm super happy. The only thing that makes me not happy is my prospective orgo grade, but that doesn't really matter in the long run, right? Let me tell you first what I did this weekend. A couple of friends and I went to University of Georgia to perform in the UGA India Night show. Indeed, I speak of Duke DHOOOM. It was a wonderful experience, especially for my first time going on one of these, drive a bunch and get to some place and stay at some random Days Inn and perform and have fun and come back, kind of things. It was awesome. Bonding time with the team, getting to know things about people that I would've never guessed, understanding the dynamics of the group and feeling like I'd accomplished something that wasn't academic. I don't think I've had that kind of feeling in a while. Honestly, I haven't even had the academic feeling in a while. But t...

Today in the Chronicle, Duke's daily newspaper, I read a column by Sony Rao called "Why we should date." She's a senior at Duke and pretty much asserts that you should get practice dating because your first few might be icky, but getting through those will get you to the good one(s). She talks about how Duke's hook up culture sucks (it does) and how starting dating as a senior isn't a terrible thing because 1) you never know who you might hit it off with and 2) it's good practice for the future if it doesn't work out. One of the lines directly from her that made me laugh out loud literally was "And I'm not quite sure yet, but it's probably a bad idea to learn the basics of dating when you're 28 and your mother gives you a three-month ultimatum before she looks for your future husband in India." Before coming to Duke, there were two conflicting ideas that I had in my mind. One was that I really didn't want to be single anym...