Fearless

Sometimes my family has those habits that drive me insane and I have those moments where I just wish they were different. Like for example, my mom over-dramatizes everything and yells at me to do things that I've probably already done or thought that I had done but clearly not to her liking. She's also insanely overprotective and doesn't let me eat watermelon at night (because it's cold apparently, um hi we live in Texas). And then my sister -- drama queen #2 in the family, asks more questions than you probably thought existed in the English language, likes to follow me around, and doesn't know when to actually take no for an answer.  My dad, etc. etc. Point being, I realize that I probably have my own traits that drive them crazy too. Like not giving my sister enough attention, waking up at 11 every morning, etc. I have so many flaws and don't I know it. I also realize that while I have those momentary lapses where I wish these habits didn't exist in my fa...

I've always been bad at talking to people on the phone. I think it's something about how I can't see them and so even though I can hear their voice, I can't see the body language that goes with it. For someone who uses quite a bit of body language when I speak and make these weird sounds between words, I feel like it takes away from what I have to say when that can't be read along with my words. Talking via text and IM is different; I tend to not have conversations that are terribly important over Facebook and text. And I get time to think when I'm typing things which many a times makes me sound a lot funnier than I think I actually am. This is why I never did debate: I'm terrible at thinking on the spot. Even when I'm having a long philosophical or life-talk with someone, there's always this long pause that I need before I speak to straighten up my jumbled thoughts. I kinda wish I didn't have to do that, but meh. What can you do? I was saying...

Happy almost mother's day hooraay! Let's spend only one day celebrating how important our mothers are to us instead of all 365 days of the year! That was sarcasm, did you get that? But actually, mother's day is good. It gives my mom two days of the year to go on about how important she is in our lives and for us to chuckle and agree with her, the other being her birthday of course. Here's my present to my mother this year. Bas aap yaad rakho ki mein jitni bhi door chali jaoon, hamesha aap ki nanhi pari rahoongi. Just remember that no matter how far I go, I'll always be your little girl.  Not a direct translation, but that's pretty much what it means. So that's a origami card with sentimental Hindi written inside that I hope makes her cry and a bouquet of origami flowers. The Hindi took me a couple hours because I just learned the basics of writing a few days ago from my grandma. Writing something useful with my newfound knowledge was definit...

So I'm back in Texas for the summer. Yaaaaay. I think one of the reasons this summer is firstly, not that exciting for me, and secondly, almost scares me, is because I'm afraid of distance causing my relationships and friendships with people to weaken. Then I think, no, if anything it will purge friendships if anything, see which ones can withstand 4 months of distance. And even though I have a strong feeling that most of the close friendships I've made and my relationship will be stronger than ever once I get back to school in the fall, I can't help but worry nonetheless. I'm laying alone on the edge of my bed tonight and chuckling to myself about how there's definitely enough room for two while there wasn't back at Duke. In a house this big it's a wonder why it's so difficult to do things secretly and without disturbing anyone. Late nights alone in my room at home are going to be troublesome. My house pretty much shuts down at 10 or 11 pm wh...

Yaaaay new layout and stuff! I dunno, I wanted to try something new but now I kind of miss my old layout... sad... Soooo a lot has happened since the last time I posted. Let's start at the beginning. Last Sunday I met for the first time with my NeuroCare buddy. The NeuroCare program pairs you up with an individual, usually in the Durham area, with a mental disorder that you hang out with once every week or once every two weeks. My buddy, Wendy, is currently in speech therapy and has some developmental delay, so she acts like a teenager or younger even though she's 23. It was a new and interesting experience, definitely with struggles, but with rewards too. I'll admit that I'm not really sure what I was expecting. I, being a person who is not very good at making conversation with people I've just met, had trouble getting Wendy to talk to me about things. We went to the mall and she was wonderful and sweet and had such a unique style that surprised me (tube tops,...