Fearless

Sometimes it feels like there just aren't enough hours in the day to get done everything that needs to be done. Actually, it feels like that all the time lately. Not enough hours to read orgo AND do all the readings for seminars AND do Sapling labs AND write a 25 page paper AND memorize the mechanisms for 5 billion organic reactions AND call my parents everyday AND keep track of my sister's progress in school and give her advice on life AND keep in touch with all of my best friends back at home while maintaining new ones here AND keep up with extracurriculars. And find time to be by myself to think about things. And sleep enough. And eat meals without being worried about what time it is. And stay fit. And clean our room. And play guitar. And read for leisure.  And just breathe. College student at finals time problems. Really only one week is left until finals. 1/8 of my undergraduate college career is almost over. It's sad and invigorating at the same time. Sa...

I’m typing this on the plane back to Texas right now because I have absolutely nothing else to do and I’ve slept way too much in the past 13 hours to do so. I’m sosososo excited to be going home. Holy shit, the guy said it was 80 degrees Fahrenheit outside. But it occurred to me how different leaving friends that you live with and friends that you simply went to school with in high school. I spent only three weeks at Governor’s School and when I left those guys, I bawled. I spent four years plus with my high school friends and shed barely a tear at my high school graduation. I’m leaving for Thanksgiving break for only five days and three of my friends at Duke saw me off outside my dorm. The Texans are planning to actually get together over winter break. How does that make any sense? It’s truly amazing how much closer we get to people that we actually live with. Of course there's the exception of that one friend who lives across the street and your house is basically their ...

Wow, it's been ten days. I think that is the new longest I've gone without a post. And let me tell you, it was difficult. There were so many times where I though, a blog post would be so appropriate right now, but I had no time for one. Between November 9th and now, I've registered for spring courses, seen Joseph Gordon-Levitt, studied meticulously for and taken a neuro exam, and studied meticulously (may be an understatement) for and taken an orgo exam. That brings us to this morning. And now I feel like I can breathe. So registration for spring classes was last Wednesday for me and even though I was the last registration window, I have SUCH an amazing schedule. Zero classes that begin before 12 AM. Zero. LIFE <3 As for now, I'll be taking Organic Chem 2, Intro to Psych, Intro to Arts of the Moving Image (Film), Writing 101 - The Varieties of Compulsion, and a Research Practicum in the Alzheimer's Disease Neuroimaging Initiative. So good. Can't wait. But ...

So, I'd like to diagnose myself with seasonal affective disorder. Yesterday was one of the most wonderful days that I've had in a while and I'm going to attribute that to the beautiful weather. Sunny and somewhat warm, unlike it has been for the past couple weeks. A slight breeze but lots of vitamin D. I can't express to you how happy I was. I smiled at each and every person that I passed yesterday and was delighted to see that many of them smiled back too! And then many of the others just looked at me like, what the hell? Warmth and light are so important to me; going to Texas in November will be super nice. I guess that's one of the advantages of no longer living in Jersey, along with not having to experience hurricane Sandy...  But actually, yesterday was the first day that, after a really long time, when people asked me how I was, I said "Fantastic." It is days like this that you realize that any problems in our lives are not important enou...

Both the shoes I ordered came in! So much happiness. I've got my black sweater slouch boots and my dark brown mocassins and I'm a happy girl. Unfortunately, as you know, I lack a good camera right now, so I had to use my phone camera which does not capture the full essence of the shoe.  There isn't a picture of the boots on my feet because MY CAMERA SUCKS and there were too many light reflections all over the place. It just looked like my feet were being eaten by a black blob. They're not as shiny as they were in the picture online, but that's really okay because they still look nice. Regardless, both are super comfy and super soft. I think I need leg warmers to go with the boots now though... The mocassins fit perfectly but the boots are half a size too big because they didn't have it in 9.5 and I had to order a 10. Yep, big feet. Come at me. Regardless, that just means I wear an extra pairs of socks and my feet stay warmer. Boom. I know what you...

Hola world. Rather, NJ friends and Duke friends and select friends from other places. Only two and a halfish weeks until Thanksgiving break. And then I can go "home" to Texas, exploit it for its heat, sleep in a super comfy bed, decorate my new room, watch movies, eat real food, and relax. A lot. It sucks that I can't see friends though, but I miss my family too.  I have a Neuro test next Tuesday. I don't actually know anything. I have an Orgo test two Mondays from now, not including today. The amount that I don't know things exceeds the amount that I've ever not known something. Except like, Chinese. I don't know Chinese at all. You would think I would with my yellow fever and too many to count Asian friends, but I in fact do not.  I realized today that although I don't feel that much different than I did at the end of high school, if I step outside and look in for a second, I am a lot different. When I do see my friends from high school again, I...